there is a design...

Last night I was able to listen to my own iPod for the first time in about two months. My FM Transmitter broke so I hadn't been able to listen to it in the car, and then my car charger was in the car when it was stolen and I couldn't find my wall charger. Well, after cleaning up a bit this weekend the wall charger was found and finally I had an hour or two to myself to relax...and since the three new discs of Gilmore Girls Season 7 don't arrive until today or tomorrow, I blissfully sat and read magazines and listened to my own music. It was marvelous. And this song seemed to fill my very bloodstream with hope as it played in my ear:

i always knew
you
in your mother's arms
i have called your name
i have an idea
placed in your mind
to be a better man
i've made a crown
for you
put it in your room
and when the bride groom comes
there will be noise
there will be glad
and a perfect bed
and when you write a poem
i know the words
i know the sounds
before you write it down
when you wear your clothes
i wear them too
i wear your shoes
and your jacket too
i always knew
you
in your mother's arms
i have called you son
i've made amends
between father and son
or if you haven't one
rest in my arms
sleep in my bed
there is a design
to what i did and said...

(vito's ordination song, sufjan stevens)

It reminds me of Jamie's sweet voice, it reminds me of miraculous life, it reminds me of everything good, it reminds me that He heals the brokenhearted, it reminds me of the golden laurel crown which Bridget gave to me two Christmases ago and which sits atop my favorite lamp. I put it on my head and stared out into the dark and let the refrain fill every space in my mind and heart..."there is a design, to what i did and said..."

The light always overcomes the darkness.

Hebrews 12:2
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.